you are what you eat

If my body hurts-theres a reason why it hurts. When I am tierd I either fall asleep or I punish myself. My face got sunburned today. I didn't talk as much as I could have. I would have had more fun if I had cheered for my team. When I enter a situation in a spectator mode I refuse to change over to extrovert mode. If I step into a room where everyone is dancing and I decide to wait around-I will not dance at all that night.

Beauty wrythes in pain because it has to, because its wrong, and because we all want to punish it. Equality is unavoidable.

Her mother smoked while she was pregnent. Her left eye is just a little bit bigger than her right eye, but her left eye is beautiful. When she smiles with her lips sealed a tiny sliver of her teeth is revealed. I don't think she can smile without it. She is skinny but she is not very curvy. Sometimes she doen't feel like a woman at all.

In reference to poetry, you are what you despise. I once saw a magazine cover with tira reid on it. Her left eye was bigger than the right one. I was so pleased with myself because of this that I hung her picture above a light switch. The idea that I was more perfect than at least this beautys editors glistend with every flick on or off. Several weeks later I began noticing a dissimilarity between my right and my left. Its been years now and I feel unproportioned in everyway. I am beautiful sometimes. I thank Tira for my good side.


You know it was something special if it hurts.

I'm getting up and I am going to turn around.
Death gives way to life I'm reminded of the maggot and the roadkill.
It doesn't matter how beautiful of a creature you are the world will make equals of us all.
I'm loaning out some sympathy so that I cant enjoy it for myself. I'm on my feet.
I am arranged to dance with a former lover.
I am reminded of the burn victims mirror ritual.
He doesn't kiss me on my eyes.
Thats not how I wake up anymore.
He doesnt beg for a glipse of my femeninity
my frailty
he doesnt wrap his arms around my arms and take deep full breaths of air.
I'm thinking back not looking back.
I'm swimming not dancing
Im making a note of it not considering...